Slowly rolling down the alley to the Meadow, in the pitch black.
Emma died alone, in the dark, on her father's grave. She took an overdose.
In the end, the only people who were looking for Emma that night were the police.
She hadn't committed any offences, she hadn't been a victim of crime; yet it was the police who were looking.
There was no one else.
Up and down the country police numbers are shrinking, budgets are being cut; we're being told "cut crime, nothing more".
The crime figures are being manipulated downwards and the reduced figures used as justification for the reductions in numbers.
In November, the elections for Police and Crime Commissioners (PCCs) are coming. Another layer of politicians, up and down the country that, from what I can see, nobody wants or cares about.
All the while companies like G4S are being sought as the solution to all of the woes, outsource is the new mantra; peddled by unaccountable think tanks, with an unhealthy access to politicians, and direct, unelected influence, over all of our lives.
This will all end badly, lives will be lost, people injured. It can't be dressed up.
Police officers, who know their jobs, who know what will happen, are being told not to speak out about it.
The regulations designed to prevent corruption being used for this purpose.
Well, I'm speaking anyway. Others too.
Doing it without the benefit of a safety net, we're not representatives of the Federation (the nearest thing officers have to a union).
In fact the Federation can only offer those of us speaking out rather limited protection, if any.
In short, we are putting our jobs on the line.
We do it gladly though, because it's the right thing to do.
We are putting everything at risk, because people need to know what's coming.
This isn't about pay or pensions, despite the fact this has a direct impact on the families of officers.
This isn't about officers working long shifts and having hundreds of thousands, of hard earned days off cancelled; to cover growing gaps in police capability.
I'm speaking up, for one, because public safety comes first. Every time. Full stop.
Even so, this has begun to feel like an uphill struggle, like a hill that may never be climbed.
I almost bowed out, just yesterday.
Then I thought about Emma Kate Harlow.
The only people, there at the end, were the police; despite the absence of crime.
With Support or not, risk or not, this is a fight that cannot be walked away from.
The odds are bad, the gloves weighted; the likely outcome not pretty.
But...if you can, no matter who you are, or where you are, please stand up too.
Me and others like me could use a hand; to make sure, maybe for the last time for some of us, that the right thing is done.
Whatever happens, even if no one else stands up, know this: